A Blissful Moment

Its start of the week again... Its Monday!!!

My boss gave us a lecture this morning. Why?! Because most of us are late this morning including me hee. I'm 5 minutes late. He said we should be punctual in life then he start all his "da dao li" again *sigh Although its not too good to hear him "nagging" on early Monday morning but it seems like none of us really care about what he nags ha...

Anyway talk about something happier :) I accompany Jeff to his friend's wedding yesterday night. The bride looks gorgeous, no wonder people always said that women always look the prettiest on their wedding day. I'm wondering will I look as pretty on my big day, maybe should go trim myself first. By the way, still long way to go, so can start trimming now ha... Jeff's other friends were there too, one of his clubbing "khaki" asked him a question which I'm interested to know also. He asked if he will still continue to go clubbing after he got married? And his answer is that he will retire. Ha, I was quite happy at the point when he gave this answer. On the other hand, I have the "lets wait and see" attitude. Like what I have said, its still a long way to go, nobody will know what will happen the next moment.

Have to continue to work hard tommorrow, will go to office earlier to get some work going. More and more work each day, the hong kong trip will be my motivation. Yeah!!!

Another Project...

*sigh Have to handle another project, went for the meeting this morning... This project is not new, its a project hand over by my senior who is going to leave in a month's time...

Hope my senior can finish some part of the coding before she left, else me this time sure DIE liao. Me already got one project on UAT which has a lot of bugs to fix, then another one still at development stage which is urgent to complete, really have no time to do development for another one. Unless can really clone myself ha...

Anyway will do my best lah... No choice but to bring home some work to do.

Just finish hee, will be going for another meeting tomorrow. Will sleep after packing :)
Good Night.

Driving Driving Driving

Today is monday but not too blue today ha...

Think I am still overwhelmed about getting my driving licence hee...

Just now drive out to add petrol then try parking just now (with my brother beside me) hee...
So fun ha...

But I still have problems turning at high speed, too wide turning, quite jialat... Think me need to drive more and practice more...

One Resolution Fulfilled!!!

Yeah!!!! Finally got my class 3 licence on friday! :>

Failed in the first time and finally got it on the 2nd. I must say its not easy to get this licence, have to put in a lot of time and effort and most important of all, have to put in lots of $$$$ ha.

Over here, I would like to dedicate this blog to acknowledge my family members, my dear, my friends and my instructors ha...

To my dearest brother
My brother has really helped me a lot during this period of time when I'm acquiring for my driving licence. He has been giving me good advice and and encouragement (sometimes I will get quite despair after driving lesson due to some mistakes made hee). Lastly, I have to thank him for fetching me to the driving centre for lessons almost every weekend :) Thanks, "Boy".

To Wen, Yan and Jeff
I have to thank them for tolerating my stressful and "black" face everytime they saw me after my driving lesson. They have also given sound advice and encouragement before my test. Thanks, Dude :)

To my driving instructors
I have 2 very good instructors. Although they always nag at my mistakes, they are really nice people. I am those type who are very "gan chong" during lesson, so will keep repeating the same mistakes again and again. I must really thank them for their patience in teaching me this "gan chong spider" and putting their lives in my hands ha. Thanks, sirs.
Note: if anyone wants to find a good instructor in school (BBDC), drop me a comment, I can recommend hee.

Ok lah, thats the end of my acknowledgement. Will be going out with Wen and Yan later. Hope everybody will enjoy their sunday :>

Half Day Leave

:) Will be setting off to my driving lesson in 10 mins time...

Having half day leave today but work was as busy or even busier. Its always like this... nothing will happen when you dun take leave.... I was at customer side this morning, then things start to become a mess. Everything was rushing for deadline and there it goes again, errors will pop up.... Argh....

Hope all this rushing will be over soon. I just want a peaceful life, can I?

Anyway going for lesson now, hope driving will be smooth smooth :)

Cloning Another Me

Very busy today... working with few projects on hand, sometimes really confused with what I'm going to do next. Stress...

Although now resting at home but my mind still thinking of work, hard life ha...

How I wish there will be another me ha.... That will be good :)

2nd Day Of 2006

Began my 2006 with sleeping at late nights and wake up at late morning...Hmmn... Dun sound like me, maybe its just a temporary change for a start hee...

Me have wanted to update my blog the other day, to do a review on 2005 but when I wanted to published it, blogspot threw me out and the whole blog is lost. I was so fed up then, so decided not to log out till now hee... Anyway maybe its just a symptom telling me to put all the past behind ha...

So for today, I shall update my 2006 resolution. New Year, New Resolutions mah...
Firstly, I need to schedule myself for intensive exercises. I have started to grow fatter and fatter since I have moved back home. Guess this has to be credited to my Mummy, she has indeed been taking care of me well ha, regular meals at regular interval ha... Second, I have to credit this to myself also, has been out eating supper every saturday ever since I have quitted my part time job. Really envy those who can eat supper every night and will not grow fat, like my dear ha... Anyway my target is to be able to wear back the jeans that I have bought in Bangkok hee...

My second resolution is to broaden my skills and experience. Hope to do some project management staff this year. Despite this, me also wanted to upgrade myself by attending some courses this year but yet to decide what courses to attend because me still dont know which direction me will be heading to. Maybe I should attend some course which can help me achieved something in this current job. Hope to get my Class 3 licence in March too :)

My last resolution is to be happy with my dear hee. Hope I can think more simpler in 2006 (regarding relationship issues). Me also hope can walk out of the old issues that happen in 2005, then he will not need to explain the same thing again and again untill he get sick of me ha... Hope that everything will be smooth smooth for him this year. Jia you, Dear :)

Last but not the least, hope all my friends and family members will have a prosperous and fruitful 2006. Cheers :>

Christmas...

Came in to write something on my blog...
* wondering who will come in to see this since i have not been blogging for a long time hee

Another 8 more days to Christmas...

Received a present from Jeff yesterday but me still dun have the mood of Christmas....

*sigh dun know what to write liaozzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
will come in to write again before 2005 ended, shall do a review on this year events and have some new year resolution written :)

Have a nice weekend :>

Waiting for a Holiday....

Has been busy with work lately but I have gone to few travel agencies yesterday.

Hmmn... going for a holiday????

Yah, going to KOREA.... going to where "DA CHANG JIN" is made.... fun hor...

BUT... I am not the one going... so sad right :(

Ha... ok lah... Its Jeff who is going. Anyway he deserves to take a break after so many months of torture. Feels happy for him too :) Went around with him to the travel agencies at Chinatown. Quite interesting, some agents treat you like "God", let you see photos then psycho you to take up the package. Then some simply "bo chap", you go there and take the phamplets and see yourself loh... Ha... Its a good experience, I have learnt what to enquire when I go to the travel agencies next time round.

Talking about the photos. Wah... vey beautiful scenery, making me so "gian" to go korea too :) Guess I will have to wait, wait and wait... No $$ + No leave now... ha

Hope I can go travelling all by myself one fine day, after I have gained enough experience hee... Guess that will be a different and unique experience bah... will be longing for that day to come ;>

Thank God Its Friday

TGIF.... Think this a phrase frequently used by people who are working...

And to update my friends who has been reading my blog, though didn't update for a long time, I have found a job!!!!

I have started work 3 days ago. Its with a SME (Small Medium Enterprise). Although company is small but my colleagues are all not bad people, all in their 20s except for my 2 bosses. Hee... This is what I want, I don't want to see too many arrows flying here and there. Hope to gain genuine experience through projects that I have done. By the way, my designation is Software Engineer.

I shall write a summary of what I have been experiencing for the last 3 days.

DAY 1: Went to work at 9am and start to loiter around for a while, then start reading up on ASP and VBScript. OH NO.... This 2 languages look so alien to me but I should take this opportunity to learn :> Thus I continue to jia you and study, study and study and soon it is home sweet home time.

DAY 2: Continue my study and went to a meet my clients with my boss and colleague in the afternoon. There was a lot of people there, most of them are users for the software... Seems like the meeting is for 'requirement gathering', something that I have studied in E427 module... Its really a good experience.

DAY 3: Stay in office whole day studying again. In the evening, I had a good dinner at Merchant Court Hotel with my current colleagues and ex colleagues. The ex colleagues are ver nice people too:) Too bad I joined the company too late. Hee...

Goals for next week....
Must work hard hard, put in more effort and hope to achieve something...

Emotional Support

Have not been blogging for a long time, cannot find the motivation to come in to blog... hee

Just saw Jeff's blog on emotional support, so decide to discuss it here from my point of view.

Is it only girls who need emotional support??? How about guys??? And what is emotional support??? Maybe someone out there can give me some answer, hee...

Some girls would need more emotional support, some need less. It depends on different characteristic of girls. Maybe more independent girls need less but I think no girls would say that they need none. Emotional support does not necessay comes from boyfriends or girlfriends. It can also be from your family members and friends.

Does emotional support neccessary to be in words, that is verbal or written??? Think of the soup or dinner that your mum cook for you after a day of tiring work. Or your dad waiting for your return downstair at the HDB void deck late at night. Or your siblings listening to your 'lao sao' when you feel down. Your mum, dad or siblings need not say anything but you can feel that they are giving you emotional support right?

I personally thinks that emotional support is a kind of feeling and its the thoughts of another person that counts. As long as he or she has the heart to do something to cheer or encourage you, its already a support. Its just that simple, isn't it?

Learning Process and Determination

Just came back from a swim... Nice weather today, so went for a swim and tan :)

Has been feeling down for these 2 days again but didn't tell anybody about it. It was because I can't figure out why I'm down. maybe due to driving... maybe due to the job-seeking process... maybe due to other things... I don't even know how to start to 'fa lao sao' ha... Luckily went for a swim today to relax relax and found out what I have been missing ever since I have started my University study. I have lost something that I have used to have in my Polytechnic days. I have lost my DETERMINATION.

Although I have completed the 3 yrs course smoothly, most of the time I am not determined enough to learn the concepts thoroughly. Even for projests, I also tend to rely on others to provide me with a solution and tends to give up easily. This is unlike me in the past. Is it because of the tight schedule in University system? Anyway I am going to find this DETERMINATION back...

Today is a weekday but due to my wrong timing, the pool was crowded with groups of students learning swimming. It reminds me of my learning process when I have started to learn swimming in sec 2. Gone through the systematic course, yet still don't know how to swim... Think I am slow learner and I am more of a self learner. In the end, I pick up swimming by practicing myself. This is the same case when I learn cycling too. As for my driving course, it will be the same case too. What I need is more practices and that means MONEY ha...

k lah, thats all for today...

Everybody, JIA YOU!

Blood Donation Day

It was an eventful day yesterday. Firstly went back to school to take my transcript in the morning. A lot of my friends took their graduation gowns yesterday too but I did not. WHY??? Am I not going for convocation? No... No... I am going for convocation but I am not going to spend money for the gown. I am to going to borrow it from my cousins who graduated last year. Ha... me very 'giam' hor... Anyway, for all my friends who went back to NTU yesterday: CONGRATS!!! We have finally gratuated and see you all at the convocation day :>

After collecting my transcript, I headed to HSA (Health Science Authority) with Wencheng. What for??? Ha Ha, to do a good deed, to donate blood. However my dear friend was not able to donate any of his blood because doctor forbids him from doing so due to his slight cough. Poor thing , he has to wait for me outside the room for 1/2 an hour. However, what the doctor did was right, he has to be strict. The blood is used to save a lot of lives and not to do harm to anyone. I was also surprised by the crowd who were there despite a weekday. Afterall, most Singaporeans are brave and do have a kind heart.

After the donation, I met up with Jeff at Esplanade area. Its really a nice place to chill out. I always like to go there when I feel down, because the sea or river there can calm me down. Has been feeling a bit complex ever since graduated. Have been thinking, thinking and thinking... But finally I have told myself not to think too much. The more I think, the more complex I become ha. I will just do my best to send out applications and attend interviews. So Lijun must jiayou, jiayou and jiayou!!!

On the road today...

Today is my third driving session, got out of the circuit and went on the road. Very very nervous, was holding on tight to the steering wheel. That was not correct!!! Hope to relax more when i got on the road the 2nd time hee. But me really pity the instructor who sit on my car, think his blood pressure should go up quite fast ha ha.

Went for an interview this afternoon too, go on well quite smoothly, at least better than last few times which i made a mess out of them ha. However, my friend who works in the company told me not to pin too high hope on it, because I don't have the honors classification that they want. Come on, think I just have to face the reality, academic qualification still plays an important part. *Sigh This is what Singapore is. Hope to find a job fast.

Human beings are indeed complicated. When we cannot get a job, we will feel stress because don't have income. However when we got a job, we got stress too due to the job and dealing with a whole lot of other human beings (OR are they MONSTERS???).

First time taking a ride on Mummy's car

This is the first time that I sit on Mummy's car. However my Mum told me that she had driven me before when I was small. Think I was too young then to remember anything.

It was an exciting ride, like a taking a roller coaster. She has not been driving for a long time, so she was very nervous, keeps braking and accelerating suddenly. She is driving on a normal road at a speed of 30km per hour, even slower than a bus.... thats funny. Opps, I shouldn't be so rude hee... cos me myself hasn't got a licence yet ha.... Maybe woman are more 'timid'??? ALL LADIES OUT THERE, no offence please :)

Anyway, it will be my first time driving a car tommorrow, very excited ha... Hope everything goes on well, and wont scared off the instructor hee...

Good Night

LOST....

Have not been blogging for a few days liao... busy with work (part time)
Just got my results few days ago, only got one word to say.... DISAPPOINTMENT!!!
Maybe I have pinned too high hopes on my honors classification, or its really too competitive for my cohord to get a better result. Anyway everything is set and nothing can be changed now, so I just have to accept what it is and get on with life.

I have been adjusting myself to the outcoming results these few days, that may be why I'm a bit lost, suddenly don't know what I want.... Am I really suitable for a technical job??? Or should I go for a managerial and administration one??? Guess I should give myself more time to consider before jumping into any conclusion. Therefore I am still opened to any of these jobs.

Although there are disappointment, there is still something to celebrate about. That is, I have finally graduated, I am now a real and actual Degree Holder haha. There is a verse which state that graduation=unemployment, we shall see how true is that.... Hopefully its not too long for me and my friends who had just graduated.

Finally walk out of the dark cloud

Just ended the call with wen. Can hear from her voice that she feels better today:) Not like few days ago, keeps saying that she wants to die, so scary... she told me that she can finally sleep soundly last night and eats more today. Really happy for her. Hope that she can be happier as day goes by, will always be there to support her.

Seeing her like that reminds me of my first failed relationship few years ago. My condition at that time is similar to that of hers. Cannot sleep and cannot eat well, has no interest in anything, also feel like dying. Guess some of my friends who know me in University will not believe that, because most of them think that I'm a strong girl. Anyway I walked out of the dark clouds within a week. Maybe its because the relationship is short (just 6 months), or maybe I am really a strong girl ha. Or maybe I am too rational. To make myself stop thinking about it, I have been keeping myself very busy.... I studied, working part time, teaching tuition and busy with my CCA... power right ha, never know that I can multitask so many things until then. I diverted most of my energy on studies, and thats why I got my best result that semester during poly. I must say that this first relationship has indeed changed my life and somehow my character also, to become even more rational and practical.

Anyway, what is in the past has already past, There is no point to cry over spilled milk. What's important now is to treasure your present and look forward to the future. I am satisfied with what I have now and I will treasure it. Hope to see through the future together with my love one :)

Owning a car makes a person more meow?

Did you ever experience before your friend who owns a car refused to give you a lift even its on the way?

At that point of time, will you think that he is a miser?

I would say, most of the time, friends will usually give each other a lift if ITS ON THE WAY. I seldom face the problem above, maybe because I'm a girl, so have some special treatment hee.

I mysef is not a car owner, but my brother is. However, I can feel the burden of feeding the car with petrol, its not easy and that may be the reason to cause a person to become a cat (meow). So can we use this reason to refuse sending or fetching our friends?

My brother just told me an incident few days ago. He went out with a group of friends as usual, and was outside till 3am. They went to 24 hr Mac which is very near my house, and a friend of his told him that he will take a cab back if it is too late, knowing that my bro lives nearby. Thats very nice of hime rite? But around 3am, this friend changes his attitude totally, he asked my bro to send him back home. His home is really out of the way! Moreover, he thinks that my bro SHOULD do so because my brother owns a car and its late already. In the end, my brother refused to send him back. Do you think my brother is a miser? Or is the friend taking my brother for granted? Maybe people who saw this blog can give me some comments.

What is Love?

Change my msn nick today. Asked a question which has been discussed by a lot of people since ancient time: "问世间情为何物". How come this word 'Love' can make people so happy yet so sad. Something happen today that make me ask this question again and again. A friend of mine started out a relationship fast plainly relying on love(emotions) only, without really considering if the guy is suitable for her or not. And I supported her at that time, which I will usually object to it. I always believe that its better to understand each other better first before stepping in. There is no point to ask him/her to change after finding out that there is a great difference in character. Maybe what i did at that time was wrong, i shouldn't be so supportive, but I can really feel that she's happy at that time. But in the end, they still ended their relationship within months.

So much about the bad news. Must write about something happier. Learn from Mummy how to cook today. You may ask why a sudden interest in cooking. It is not all of a sudden thing actually, has been thinking of it few years ago. At that time, I'm still busy with studies and part time job, moreover I'm living in my uncle's place during weekdays, so din really have the time to learn. Finally, me had this chance to stay at home to ask mummy to be my teacher. This time me learnt a few dishes: 1) Fried omellette with onion, prawn n mince meat 2) Fried fish and 3) fried cai xin with oyster sauce. Yummy! Throughout the whole session, me din cook everything myself, only touch a bit here and there hee. I shall do everything by myself the next time round, then see who will be my guinea pig ha...