Sunday, May 29, 2005

Finally walk out of the dark cloud

Just ended the call with wen. Can hear from her voice that she feels better today:) Not like few days ago, keeps saying that she wants to die, so scary... she told me that she can finally sleep soundly last night and eats more today. Really happy for her. Hope that she can be happier as day goes by, will always be there to support her.

Seeing her like that reminds me of my first failed relationship few years ago. My condition at that time is similar to that of hers. Cannot sleep and cannot eat well, has no interest in anything, also feel like dying. Guess some of my friends who know me in University will not believe that, because most of them think that I'm a strong girl. Anyway I walked out of the dark clouds within a week. Maybe its because the relationship is short (just 6 months), or maybe I am really a strong girl ha. Or maybe I am too rational. To make myself stop thinking about it, I have been keeping myself very busy.... I studied, working part time, teaching tuition and busy with my CCA... power right ha, never know that I can multitask so many things until then. I diverted most of my energy on studies, and thats why I got my best result that semester during poly. I must say that this first relationship has indeed changed my life and somehow my character also, to become even more rational and practical.

Anyway, what is in the past has already past, There is no point to cry over spilled milk. What's important now is to treasure your present and look forward to the future. I am satisfied with what I have now and I will treasure it. Hope to see through the future together with my love one :)

Saturday, May 28, 2005

Owning a car makes a person more meow?

Did you ever experience before your friend who owns a car refused to give you a lift even its on the way?

At that point of time, will you think that he is a miser?

I would say, most of the time, friends will usually give each other a lift if ITS ON THE WAY. I seldom face the problem above, maybe because I'm a girl, so have some special treatment hee.

I mysef is not a car owner, but my brother is. However, I can feel the burden of feeding the car with petrol, its not easy and that may be the reason to cause a person to become a cat (meow). So can we use this reason to refuse sending or fetching our friends?

My brother just told me an incident few days ago. He went out with a group of friends as usual, and was outside till 3am. They went to 24 hr Mac which is very near my house, and a friend of his told him that he will take a cab back if it is too late, knowing that my bro lives nearby. Thats very nice of hime rite? But around 3am, this friend changes his attitude totally, he asked my bro to send him back home. His home is really out of the way! Moreover, he thinks that my bro SHOULD do so because my brother owns a car and its late already. In the end, my brother refused to send him back. Do you think my brother is a miser? Or is the friend taking my brother for granted? Maybe people who saw this blog can give me some comments.

Thursday, May 26, 2005

What is Love?

Change my msn nick today. Asked a question which has been discussed by a lot of people since ancient time: "问世间情为何物". How come this word 'Love' can make people so happy yet so sad. Something happen today that make me ask this question again and again. A friend of mine started out a relationship fast plainly relying on love(emotions) only, without really considering if the guy is suitable for her or not. And I supported her at that time, which I will usually object to it. I always believe that its better to understand each other better first before stepping in. There is no point to ask him/her to change after finding out that there is a great difference in character. Maybe what i did at that time was wrong, i shouldn't be so supportive, but I can really feel that she's happy at that time. But in the end, they still ended their relationship within months.

So much about the bad news. Must write about something happier. Learn from Mummy how to cook today. You may ask why a sudden interest in cooking. It is not all of a sudden thing actually, has been thinking of it few years ago. At that time, I'm still busy with studies and part time job, moreover I'm living in my uncle's place during weekdays, so din really have the time to learn. Finally, me had this chance to stay at home to ask mummy to be my teacher. This time me learnt a few dishes: 1) Fried omellette with onion, prawn n mince meat 2) Fried fish and 3) fried cai xin with oyster sauce. Yummy! Throughout the whole session, me din cook everything myself, only touch a bit here and there hee. I shall do everything by myself the next time round, then see who will be my guinea pig ha...